In a strange mood.

I think that I've fallen kinda into a funk lately.  Maybe I'm a little strange, but I have a tendency to get really affected and obsessed whenever I watch a really good movie.  After I saw Divergent for the first time, I ended up watching it over and over again and I ended up working out like crazy and I looked into trying to go Ziplining and Sky diving, thinking that it would be a very "Dauntless" thing to do.

A few nights ago, I saw The Fault in Our Stars for the first time, and as expected, I cried and cried to the point where I got sucked into this vortex, the one where you start sobbing and your body is heaving uncontrollably to the point where you almost feel like you might upchuck :P

Since then, I haven't been able to get the movie and it's themes out of my mind.  I spent a whole lot of time yesterday doing research online to learn more about what happens when people get cancer.  In addition to learning the science of it, I read about many personal stories and experiences of people who get the disease.  These stories touched my heart in such a way that made me feel closer than ever before to understanding what it means to be human and just how amazing, and at the same time terrifying our bodies can be.

We talk about just how wonderful and efficient are bodies are, with all of these systems that work together to keep us alive.  Why is it then, that sometimes, our bodies end up becoming our enemy in our battle to survive?  I haven't been able to get that thought out of my mind and I feel like I even dreamed about it as I slept last night.  Maybe this is something that I'll never understand...